Today I dreamt that I was pushed into a swimming pool with clear blue water. I was pushed because someone’s cell phone fell into the water. It happened in another country. In real life I can’t swim, but what was truly liberating and refreshing (pun intended) is that as I hit the water, I realized that I began to learn to swim.
I stayed afloat, swam around and reached for the cell phone which was elusive for a while then I eventually retrieved it and came out of the pool successfully. This is a fear that I tried to overcome several times, learning at several different pools with different instructors over the years.
(I still remember my first and favourite instructor Brent at the YMCA. I still remember the grin and looks of bewilderment on my Dad and best friend at the time faces when they saw me riding on his knee across the pool while attempting to tread water! lol)
But I digress.
After combing the net for a meaning, I stumbled upon several meanings ranging from travelling to another country with someone to either attend a wedding or with that person to get married…to improving health…to a healthy life.
I then settled on my mother’s and I interpretation of the dream. She said it means that I would come out triumphantly with what I am battling with at the moment.
Last Tuesday I was involved in a vehicular accident. It was pretty bad. Everything started to move in slow motion as the other car crashed into my right side (car) and persons came to my rescue. Police, ambulance. Passersby. I had to be taken away by stretcher and rushed to the emergency room sirens and all. It was surreal. I never thought that would be me.
I’m grateful that I lived to tell the tale, but the process of healing starts from within. It’s a slow process as I am in a lot of pain. This experience has taught me something I’ve been preaching to my family. And that is “the power of life and death is in the tongue”.
I had such a bad month for the greater part of April that I sorta kept repeating that if God decides to take me tomorrow I would have no regrets. I was ready. Then I’d see my Dad again and my troubles will be over. It was a morbid re-occurring thought and utterance.
While I would never ever take my own life, I thought to myself that I had done and accomplished everything I wanted to in life already and I have already squeezed a lifetime of living into 37 short years on this earth. While everyone kept telling me there’s more living to be done, I was convinced that nothing could top these experiences.
But God gave me another reason to live. “There’s more work to be done,” he whispered as the car span out of control. While many thoughts crossed my mind while riding in the ambulance, I prayed that nothing seriously wrong was happening inside of my chest and I would live to tell this tale and learn the lessons.
The last few days I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching and praying. Here’s my list of 21 lessons so far:
- Let go of things and people that no longer serve me
- Leave the past in the past and use the lessons for the present and future
- Know when enough is enough and mean it
- Know what you want from each situation and person and make your intentions clear from the start
- The power of intent is far reaching (thoughts are mighty powerful)
- Say what you mean and mean what you say and act the part
- Let you body and words be in sync
- Don’t lie to yourself
- Trust your own judgement
- Exercise more tolerance and patience with challenging situations
- Find a healthy way to release your tension
- Any emotion that keeps you awake/absorbs your time and energy is worth exploring
- Find a way to work through your emotions, because if buried it will resurface/fester
- Take care of your health and body
- Don’t take everything so personal
- Make healthy compromises
- Always seek opportunities for healthy two-way communication
- Work hard even when you don’t feel like it because tomorrow is promised to no one
- Strike a healthy work/life balance – too much of one thing is good for absolutely nothing!
- Money is not everything, but without it you have nothing (lol)
- All decisions are easy when you weigh the consequences
Through it all, I now know who are my true and genuine friends and I will never forget you. My sister and my friend Roxanne always say that I have way too high expectations of people.
Not sure if this is true, but I prefer honest, genuine energy in my inner circle at least. I don’t think there is room for fakers and dishonesty.
This just poisons your life and stunts your progress. There’s an entire chapter in my second book (How To Find Yourself & Claim What’s Yours) devoted to this – Chapter 5: The Cold Harsh Truths.
Peace & Love,