I am unable to put into words my feelings on the past week. It was an especially difficult time, but I was able to overcome my feelings. Depression is something real. I am not sure if I was depressed or just tired. I did not know it, but my friend at the gym pointed it out to me.
One of the sources of my pain was my feelings over my Dad who passed away in December who would have been 80 years young on Thursday had he lived. I think it affected me subconsciously in my waking moments. I thought about him sporadically all week, but did not stay long enough to allow the feelings to permeate my being. Today being Mother’s Day, I was suddenly able to empathize with all of my friends who have lost their moms and dads over the years. You never know what someone else is going through until you come face to face with it yourself.
People who know me, know that I like things to happen right away. I like immediacy. Even my old co-workers liked to tease me about it when I was employed full time. Even my new friends have come to know this about me. It’s not something I’m proud of…I know I need to work on my patience and tolerance. So as my impending workshop and book launch draws closer, I feel myself getting anxious and tense because things are not happening in my timing. There are so many variables out of my control!
Now that I’ve left the safety net of employment, I am now becoming aware of the highs and lows of entrepreneurship which is still very new to me. My friends who are veterans to this are “motivating the motivator” and they laugh as I hyperventilate with the details. We all agree however that it’s no easy task, especially the nature of my business. It may look glamorous at times on the outside, but no one really knows what happens behind the scenes.
My thought for today, is that no matter what’s happening in our lives, there’s always another side of things….it can always be worse. There’s always someone going through more. A few of my friends are battling with so many serious life-changing things which they have no control over. But things always have a way of working out, once you condition your mind to positive thinking. I told my mother about a month ago: When faced with a challenging decision, ask yourself: what is the worst that can happen? If you are able to answer this and deal with the worse case scenario, then you have your answer. Go full speed ahead. There’s nothing much to lose. In some cases just your pride or ego. I need to take my own advice!
As I prepare for presentations and new partnerships in the upcoming weeks and months, I embrace the unknown and get ready for the challenges that lay ahead. I will try to exercise patience and ask for guidance as I step into unknown territory and face my destiny. Only time will tell where this story ends. In the meantime, I will try to muster the strength and faith needed to persevere to the end and to the other side of my definition of success.
Have a fabulous week and Remember to Make it Count!
Peace & Love xo