No More Living in the Past

I just spent the most fabulous 6 days on the sister-isle of Tobago. It was a very impromptu decision which are usually the best ones. What I didn’t do, I forgot to…I was having too much fun to remember. I really came to do work, but that notion quickly disappeared. 

photo credit –  © C.K. Correia 2015 – All rights reserved
Englishman’s Bay, Tobago

My friends back home told me I needed a brain cooler and almost without effort I found just that. I drove around the countryside villages of Moriah, Englishman’s Bay, Castara, Parlatuvier, Bloody Bay, L’Anse FourmiRunnymede and exited thru the other end of the island to Roxborough, Belle Garden, Goodwood, Mt. St. George, Scarborough and back to my old home of Mason Hall. 

I went to Harvest (sharing of food and drink) and ate enough curry goat, provisions and buss-up-shut to feed a town:). I got to see my brother again and took in some limbo at Sunday School and caught up with (literally) ten more of my friends at a new liming spot. Still couldn’t get to see everyone, but words can’t describe how great it was seeing the ones I was able to meet up with. They feel like “home”…like if I’ve known them a lifetime. I have now returned to reality refreshed, relaxed, rejuvenated and ready to go again! I feel like I have a new lease on life.

Last night I used the ferry ride back home to unwind and today I skipped gym to attend my meditation class all rested to get the full effect. When I returned home, things that bothered me 6 days ago, took longer to take effect. I think I may be on to something. Tobago+Meditation[+Gym] = Recipe for serenity and a healthy body, mind and soul.

On my last trip in September, I thought I got over my Tobago tabanca, but I was wrong. Revealing some of those carefree, liberated awakenings I had when I lived there in 2013 in my memoir made me yearn for more. 

Somewhere along the 6 days, I realized that being back on the island and in my old apartment did not have the same effect. I still absolutely love the feel of the place, but I had a simple yet marked revelation: Time did not stand still! Not for me, nor for everybody else. Things are quite different two years later. 

I LOVED my life then, but I like the one I have now too: renewing old friendships, following my dream and all the new people that have come into my life are priceless joys. I can’t recreate those identical moments and emotions 2013 brought just by being back in the same place. It’s different. I can’t live in the past. I must move on. Life goes on and I can’t wait for all the exciting things that are in store. Like my mother always says: “Time waits on no man.”

I can always go back when I need to. And I can always re-visit my memories of my Dad of when he was alive and visited me with my sister, as well as all my other adventures whilst there. Maybe I would even return to live one day, but for right now, I must live in the NOW and I have a feeling it’s gonna be one heck of a ride. 

What are you waiting for? Are you living in the NOW?!! Feel free to share by posting a comment below.

Peace & Love


  1. Comment from a reader:

    Dear Carolyn,
    When I read this, it made me really think, as it says pretty much what I feel too. I am from Antigua, and been in the UK for 6 yrs now, yet still have that yearning to go home, the grass is greener, etc, but you know what, you made me see another side today, and I do have so much more now, here, I can always go home, but there's still so much to do, even at my age.
    Keep in touch, would love to connect,
    Best, Julie


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