I went to church today. This is not the norm for me. It was a special occasion, so I made the exception. While I am a prayerful person and pray multiple times a day, I am not very religious. I can’t figure out why, but every now and then I try to make an effort to make it to the church on time.
photo credit – C.K.Correia 2012

It was very emotional for me. Several times during the mass I had to blink away tears especially when the choir sang the Kyrie Eleison, as I remembered my Dad. As I sat there I looked around at the wide cross-section of people. 

Some were elderly, there was a young couple with a daughter that I have been seeing for years when I did attend. I even remember when the child was a baby. For a second, I wished I had their commitment. I saw some old married couples and there I got the idea for this blog.

Marriage. What a taboo topic. For a moment, I wondered what it would be like to be married for 50+ years as was the case of the subjects in question. My parents were married for this long. But I digress.

No matter what transpired during the marriage, what would it be like to seem this happy or ‘comfortable’ as this couple in church? To attend church together and do everything together. To be each other’s life companion?

What a thought! To co-exist with another person for this long. To FORGIVE, to forget. To share, to learn, to TRUST, to not ‘fret’. 

It’s food for thought. How many will win the marathon? It’s definitely not for the faint hearted although some fake matrimonial bliss. Will I ever find that? Do I even want that? Does it even exist!? Ahhh…

I was just having a conversation with a friend about it yesterday. In fact she brought up the topic. My friend who is 41 and a very successful, self-sufficient professional does not want the bother. She thinks it is a waste of time at her age and she is better off alone! 

While I do not think I am that bad, sometimes I do like my space to live my life how I wish especially since I have so much planned. I probably should not say that openly as it may ruin my chances, but what the hay! 

Many of my married friends always ask me if I do not want to get married as they think I’ll make a great wife. They don’t understand my response. But who knows what life may bring…I will still remain open to the possibilities for happily, ever after and prove myself wrong that this actually exists…

Peace & Love

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